I can Use That

And then the horrible no good dark and dingy month was embellished by a teeny tiny strand of brilliant sun, like hopeful stubborn tinsel suspended in a dry curbside tree. 

"I can use that!" Shouted the artist."I am sure to find another too ," she thought looking around. 

"Where there is one glimmer,  there is more."

"I can hang them together," she planned as she hunted around, "and I will call them 'Spring'."

So the artist gathered each gleam and shimmer,  suspending them together over her city, and it was blindingly good.

I thought of you today.

Today, I practiced putting together a nasal narcan administration device for the first time..

...Reminding myself of the first aid ABCs and hoping I called 9-1-1 first when I found you....

I thought of my close friends who have used heroin and other opiates, while I silently popped the purple seal off the medication. 

I thought of folks I know that have overdosed, some now deceased, as I twisted the plunger pieces together.

I thought of you, the person I've yet to meet and the person I already know, turning bluer with oxygen loss as I twisted on this fragile little winged life saving plastic mechanical tip on the end that I could one day rush to place against each nostril.

And, as I recited in my head the very simplistic prayer, &one spray, once each nostril, then wait, repeat in time if necessary,& a mantra of love I'm to breathe while professional first responders rush to my side.

I thought of this life and death lottery you play while I am waiting ...for you to overdose... for me to find you.... for you to breathe.  

I thought of you today.