I thought of you today.

Today, I practiced putting together a nasal narcan administration device for the first time..

...Reminding myself of the first aid ABCs and hoping I called 9-1-1 first when I found you....

I thought of my close friends who have used heroin and other opiates, while I silently popped the purple seal off the medication. 

I thought of folks I know that have overdosed, some now deceased, as I twisted the plunger pieces together.

I thought of you, the person I've yet to meet and the person I already know, turning bluer with oxygen loss as I twisted on this fragile little winged life saving plastic mechanical tip on the end that I could one day rush to place against each nostril.

And, as I recited in my head the very simplistic prayer, &one spray, once each nostril, then wait, repeat in time if necessary,& a mantra of love I'm to breathe while professional first responders rush to my side.

I thought of this life and death lottery you play while I am waiting ...for you to overdose... for me to find you.... for you to breathe.  

I thought of you today.